Hello guys
As much as I would love to sing shoki right now or sing a Christmas song, my mood is just dead at the moment. I read a post about depression sometime ago on Susanne's blog and it felt like she was talking about me. I promised not to dump this blog at any point and that's why I'm putting up this post. So today I am going to be putting up my own issue as Dear Moby and I would need mobylizers to help me. Please I don't need anyone to judge me...just help me.
Dear Moby,
I have a huge problem.... Never thought it would be an issue but obviously it is. Since I was a teenager, I always told myself that I can never love anyone cos men are unreliable...and these men didn't help either. They kept toying with my emotions and so it made my feelings about men get worse. All the men I've ever dated have loved me and I just kept that feeling in my head that men are unreliable and so I never relied on any man. When I'm in a relationship, I'm always one leg in and one leg out. So when the bad happens, it was always easy to move on. I met a guy last year and I started the relationship with my old mentality 'all men are the same' but this guy was different. He gave me every reason to believe that he was different. I have tried all the skills in the book to make this guy mess up and prove to me that he is like every other guy but he didn't fall...he kept passing all my test. Now my problem is putting all my legs in this relationship. I can't seem to do that....and so I feel stuck. I feel like I owe this guy everything. He is the nicest guy I've ever met...He is everything I want in a guy but I'm finding it hard to put all my eggs in this basket. I'm going through a huge depression state. I don't feel like doing anything. I don't feel like talking to anyone. I don't feel like doing anything and I don't feel like blogging anymore. I just want to give up everything, go some place far where no one knows me and just start again. I need help. I don't know who to talk to and so I thought to bring it here.
That's my story. I'm sorry if this post is stupid and you feel its unnecessary to put it up. I typed this post twice and kept deleting cos I wasn't sure I wanted to share but I remembered a problem shared is half solved.
P.S: I won't be blogging as usual. I think I might take a trip somewhere and no one would be able to reach me. I'll be back to blogging as soon ad I can. Remember I said I will never dump this blog for anything.
Thank you so much for your time. Merry Christmas in advance everyone.
Cheers....
Dear Moby,
ReplyDeleteLife is beautiful, but we complicate it with our minds, with our fears, with our thoughts. We make it seem like things arent all that now, when in all sincerity, at this exact moment, we actually have exactly what we need. Its okay to feel how you are feeling, I mean i feel like this all the time, as some nights i cry cause i cannot just understand the emptiness and brokeness i feel, some nights I cry because people walk in and out of my life like i am damn train station, some nights i cry cause its like the world is moving at such a fast pace, whereas i THINK i am stuck, But Baby mi, what I have come to realize is that i do not feel sad cause i am really sad or cause I am in need, or i am not loved, but I feel sad cause my mind is playing tricks on me, and the Devil is trying to vamp my style... At such moments, i say To myself, Duru Turn down for what? Biko I shall Turn up!. which in English means Get behind me Satan.
Moby, I have met Tito, and lemme just say, that when a guy loves a woman, his fellow guy will know sharp sharp, plus I have already bought my Uche Nnaji custom made Ouch suit for the #MoTito2015 :). Seeing Tito at the Orphanage, mehn it was thrilling, as i saw the loyalty and love for you written all over him... I just pray that you guys stay together if it be GOD'S will. Moby, you are amazing by default, and we love you to bits.. look at all of us, we leave our daily lives and blogs, and constantly rush over to yours week in week out, we read your life like a Novel cause you are wonderful and fun, and cause you are CRAZY like that :p aswear you be craze geh shhhhaaaa..... Please baby mi, whatever it is that is truly the matter Bubba, please snap out of it, cause life on Blogsville without Moby would be just wrong, it would be like Nepa took the light here.. You are an amazing human being, and you deserve to smile all the time, please dont be weighed down by this bitch called life or by you mind, but show her that you are tough, show her that you are gangster, show life that you are thick as hell.
If you need a break from blogging, then please take a break, but Bubba, no matter what, like like told modefined.blogspot.com (who by the way is one of the manyyyyy that started her blog because of you, see how your life inspires?), we look up to you, so please Moby, please cheer up, cause if Moby is feeling down, then who will cheer us up with their Weekend gists?! We love you Moby, we all do. Cheers. xx **Tight Touching body kinda hug... :*
I am humbled that my blog post spoke to you. But moby that bitterleave leaves a bad taste after eating it does it change the taste of chocolate?
ReplyDeleteI cannot claim to know, or have an inclination as to what you feel, but I can try to understand it.
I will not throw pity parties, but I will say this. You have a beautiful life, one I try so hard to picture, and you are young and full of life, one I envy and aim to achieve but moby, darling I am not a relationship expert, damn if I know anything about it, we have had our own fair share of wahala, and we would be stupid if we don't recognize the arrival of sunshine after the rain.
You have a good thing going on moby, be skeptical all you want about it but you cannot deny it.
Take time off if you want, go into limbo if you like, but know this true love knows no boundaries.
Sometimes the only chains binding us are the ones we forge in our minds. Let God and let go baby.
Let oga tito Love you till he cannot love you no more. And you don't owe him everything, all you owe him is to be happy and allow yourself be loved to ruins by him, only then can you truly let go.
I love you moby.
You will win this thing. I believe in you.
Besides this blog keeps me smiling, what will I do if you go away?
You have iya dayo,aby,ernie,mannie,Duru,and all the other mobylizers to think about. The world is a lovely place moby. You bring happiness to my world.
Moby did you see that line "" You bring happiness to my world"" thats why we live Moby, thats why we blog.. To let people say those words. I am still at the office, will call when i can. Did you get the call from my Good luck Jonathan?! **Winks...
DeleteHey Moby, it is well. I know it is hard to trust people but you have to try once in a while and pray to God that even if they disappoint you he should help you come out of the situation stronger. I can't really say i know how you feel but i understand. It will be okay. Take care of yourself....
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Hey moby, u're stronger than pain, I know, just talk to urself and u'll b fine, don't let love go when u've found it...as for d break, maybe dat's just what u need, we'll miss u, come back soon!
ReplyDeleteMoby, in the short time I've known u on blogsville i've realised that u are such a 1derful person. According to the little Psychology I know, our minds create problems even though thr is none. I believe this is a phase that will pass soon. Even though I've not met u or Ur Le Boo before, I just know how much u guys truly love each other. Now, don't let the devil come in form of depression in your life.
ReplyDeleteJust know that all mobylizers love u. If a break is what you need to clear your head, do take that break hun. E- hugs
Moby you are a really great person,and you deserve all the great things life has to offer and if he's good for you and treats you well that means we have to take a risk. Nothing in life comes easy, we have to take risks to see a change. If you want results, you have to make a change. If it was all easy we would all have it. Recently I took a risk, despite all warnings and it ended badly, but I'm still here, better than ever, lesson learnt and now I'm even seeing things and I'm all like thank God it didn't work out. It going to end two ways good or bad but it's better than living and wondering what would have been. It's better to regret something you do than something you never did. If you need a break, take it but don't lock anyone out. I know the in and out of depression and I can tell you, it doesn't help anything... I don't know him but the way you talk bout him makes me smile and be like I want that, so do what's best for you. I know people in the mafia too so we can hunt him down.
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MOBY!!!!!!!!
ReplyDelete*I WAS ALREADY THINKING ABOUT THE WAY U'D SING SHOKI WHILE I WAS LOADING THIS PAGE*
MOBY WE ARE KNOW LEBOO LOVES YOU....
FIRST OF ALL..... YOU AIN'T ALLOWED TO BE UNHAPPY OR DEPRESSED!
THE FORUM U CREATED A WHILE AGO WHERE WE CUD ASK LEBOO QUESTIONS MADE IT SO OBVIOUS THAT HE LOVES YOU TO THE MOON AND BACK!
IONNO Y U R FEELING THIS WAY, IONNO Y DEPRESSION IS THE NEXT THING BUR NOOOOOOOO TZ NOT ALLOWED!!! MOBY I CAN'T IMAGINE U IN DS STATE. I LOVE THIS BLOG LIKE CRAZY, I LOVE WHO WRITES IT TOO.... YA ONE OF THOSE THAT MADE ME GET MY BLOG... I STILL WONDER AO U KEEP IT RUNNING AND AO U GET EVERYONE HERE SO HAPPY....
BABE PLEASE STAY WITH LEBOO. FORGET ABOUT THE PAST. AND REALLY THERE IS NOTHING TO GET SCARED OF.... WE GOTTA EXERCISE A LITU FAITH AT SOME POINT! MOBYLIZERS LOVE YOU, LEBOO LOVES YOU TOO. #LIFE IS FUN WITH TITO.
MOBY!!!!!!!!
ReplyDelete*I WAS ALREADY THINKING ABOUT THE WAY U'D SING SHOKI WHILE I WAS LOADING THIS PAGE*
MOBY WE ARE KNOW LEBOO LOVES YOU....
FIRST OF ALL..... YOU AIN'T ALLOWED TO BE UNHAPPY OR DEPRESSED!
THE FORUM U CREATED A WHILE AGO WHERE WE CUD ASK LEBOO QUESTIONS MADE IT SO OBVIOUS THAT HE LOVES YOU TO THE MOON AND BACK!
IONNO Y U R FEELING THIS WAY, IONNO Y DEPRESSION IS THE NEXT THING BUR NOOOOOOOO TZ NOT ALLOWED!!! MOBY I CAN'T IMAGINE U IN DS STATE. I LOVE THIS BLOG LIKE CRAZY, I LOVE WHO WRITES IT TOO.... YA ONE OF THOSE THAT MADE ME GET MY BLOG... I STILL WONDER AO U KEEP IT RUNNING AND AO U GET EVERYONE HERE SO HAPPY....
BABE PLEASE STAY WITH LEBOO. FORGET ABOUT THE PAST. AND REALLY THERE IS NOTHING TO GET SCARED OF.... WE GOTTA EXERCISE A LITU FAITH AT SOME POINT! MOBYLIZERS LOVE YOU, LEBOO LOVES YOU TOO. #LIFE IS FUN WITH TITO.
MOBY I have read everyone's comments and I don't tink I have anything else to add.we love you and we will always be here for you.take ur time if that's all you need but be back fast.i love you and I know you are a strong woman.so take your time.
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ReplyDeleteI actually know how you feel cos I broke up with Le Boo recently cos of this same reason. But Moby, we have all seen the way Tito loves you. We all know he adores you and would give an arm and leg for you. So for this one, we don give our vote of confidence for Tito.
It's allowed for you to slip into depression but you know how a spring works na, you gotta spring back up sweetie. I have already booked makeup artiste for your wedding day o #MoTito2015.
Please don't dump this blog..... PLeeeeeaaaaaaasssssseeeeeee..... I will give you anything just say you will keep blogging. If you stop blogging you will now be my partner-in-craze na.
Takecare of you for us and don't forget we ALL LOVE YOU
Wow!.....Amazing!!....Psalm 67:7
ReplyDeletecheer up love xx
ReplyDeleteHello mo.im follower dat hardly comments bt I jus had to.its already a fact Leboo loves u.i might be wrong Mo,bt I tink u r scared.i tink u bliv u r in a great plax in ur life rite now u r so scared dat one day it wil all disappear.Mo dear even though u don't bliv it u r such a joy.i mite nt knw what u r goin thru rite now bt I'll tell u what I'll tell even my sista...don't b scared.live d life.give it ur all.mayb it will fail bt maybe again it wont,d best part is u did everytin right,u gave it a short.r u nt tired of all d what if? All thes years?.b it physical,spiritual or depression jus step on it.prove them wrong.show them Mo is a fighter.Mo is not a quiter.Mo deserves to b happy.for d happiness u spread my dear u deserve it.if u feel Leboo is too good to b true let fate and God prove it bt don't b d one to play God and Mo at d same time.As For we ur dear followers,we don't xpect u to b super woman,jus b u.if u r tired to blog for now then sweetheart take ur time.hav fun.enjoy d season.dont tink too much.dont worry about tomorrow jus let it come to u.one day at a time remeber?.sorry dis is lenghty.and we love u.dont ever forget dat.drama queen and all,dont change.hugs and kisses dear.u r a gift and u beta blive it.
ReplyDeleteWait choi! Is it that Moby wants to leave leboo? The leboo almost everyone here is crushing on?even the guys sef.and I've been asking for leboo since o.Moby do quick and leave him,just put his number on the blog for people like me.lemme pack my bobbi up.mssteeww Moby you're just letting ur head play tricks with you and its becoause you are still young and you don't know how hard it is to find a friend and companion as a partner.many of us are married just for security and dependence and age timer asuch we aren't happy.its becoause when we had the right guy, we allowed foolish thoughts get in our head which led to foolish actions.I'm not even old yet I'm 28 and I'm already not happily married even my man knows.so if you like throw this good thing away you hear.me I won't be all pity pity with you.I'lll tell you the truth.Wake up! Don't let the devil corner you and you betar don't leave this blog.I love you sha
ReplyDeleteMoby, we love you, Leboo loves you,*enjoy the love presented to you on a platter of gold and make peace with the past. Take a break darl, bhur ,pls *drops on knees*, come back soon...*kisses*
ReplyDeleteHello Moby love, you will be fine, you are a strong woman. I understand the whole depression thang, sometimes you just have to be sober to know answers to those questions. I hope you snap out of it soon and get back to blogging. I think you give this a chance, Mr Tito loves you and it is obvious, I mean very obvious! There's one thing I will tell you to do; PRAY, no one has had it 100% it is just grace. I understand what your mum went through might be fueling these feelings but with prayers you will not miss what is yours and his plans for you are of God and not of evil.
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ha! so your le boo is my name sake.....hehehehe cheer up girl,nothing do you,TITO is here to stay.forget about your past and move on.if you keep thinking about your past and the depression,girlfriend you wont move forward.i had my share of heart break and all i thought i wouldnt get married at all.God saw me through during that phase.i thought it was a generational curse,but guess what, i serve the God who fetches water with basket to disgrace the bucket.i met my man when i least expected we met Feb 3,he proposed on my birthday that was six months after meeting and we got married this year June.till now pple be dey wonder say so "Tito don marry".I married my friend my soulmate the bone of my bone.infact he is like a blessing that has been waiting for me all this while.so girl friend clean ya face bounce back to life and get blogging.jooor ooooooo
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Moby love, Look on the bright side of life, God just proved to you that you can be loved and you are loved. So embrace it. You can't sit down and wander what will the othe rside hold. Stick to what you have and pray for him. God know your heart desire he will see you through it.
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Ma luv you will be fine.i know you will
ReplyDeleteHey mobi, i honestly dont know you but i think that you are over thinking. I honestly feel you, i built a wall around my heart so i dont feel anything due to constant pain and heart break and now its hard for me to break that wall. But i am still trying because he is worth it. Like buti said, you felt you would never be loved but God sent him to prove you wrong and now you dont know how to handle it. The grass is not always greener on the other side my dear, its greener where you water it. Talk to him, try to explain to him, am sure he will get it and help you walk through this. Goodluck my dear and i hope you dont let go of the love you have found due to fear of the unknown.
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Nothing else to add jare. Everyone above has written it all.
ReplyDeleteBut you know what,everytime you have doubt,pls re-read his birthday message to you and hold on to his sincerity ok.
It's true life has no promises,but you will be doing yourself a disservice by holding back.
Give it your all,give it everything you have got and see it get even better.
And if by chance it doesn't work, then you wouldn't have to wonder if it's because you held back.