....AND THE TRAIN ARRIVES

*SIGH*

*Clearing off cobwebs and mosquitoes in here*

.... Its been how long? 1 month and plenty days? Father in heaven.... I never thought it was possible for me not to blog for a month..but I did and even exceeded my imagination. I am so sorry *sad face*.....

This post is not planned so who knows where I will go with this? I’m not going to lie, I am beyond terrified at the thought of posting this but I just have to.

Recently I have been going through a really rough patch (maybe not a BIG really...but really sha) and it’s sort of brought me to a really bad place. The reason there has been no blog posts is because I feel like anything I write or come up with is just not good enough. You all know how Moby writes and I wouldn't want to fall short of expectations.

 I really want to start doing more DIY posts, beauty posts like I used to but I can't cos I have lots of limitations I wouldn't want to bore you all with. I am trying so hard to stay strong and you guys have been amazing. A big thank you to everyone. I don't want to mention names but up until last night (and with this Linda Ikeji's mansion story), I have been getting so much comment from you all to come back to blogsville... Being really honest, doing the past posts that I have done has been great. Everyone who has followed, liked and commented I cannot thank you enough. Ye have been amazing. Everyone has been so nice here. Thank you.

Yesterday, I decided to check Linda Ikeji's blog. I already heard loads of gist about her heaven-on-earth mansion... Kai that house is a fine house kwa. I do not know how to envy people but mehn I am envious of Linda Ikeji.... CHINEKE MEHHHHHHH..... Fire... 

She said something yesterday in her blog post and I just held on to it. She said "You are beautiful and you are stronger than you know. There's absolutely nothing you can't achieve if you set your mind to it, put your heart and soul into it."

She started her post by saying "I'm 35 years old and I have never...never ever in my life slept with a man for money. Not only have I never done it, I have never even considered it.."  

Ladies, if you want to sleep with a man, do it because you love him and/or you want to enjoy it... Never ever sleep with a man for money. Unlike Linda Ikeji, I have considered it o. I will not lie. When I was in Uni, the biggest richest girls on campus were the RUNZ girls but I couldn't bring myself to do it. I can't even kiss you if I don't like you..talkless of having sex. I am no saint o but there's a limit to the things I can do. I am not being judgmental but how many people do you want to sleep with to build a house or buy a car?  Just hustle hard and hustle smart. Because I am a woman, I must make unusual efforts to succeed. If I fail, no one will say, “She doesn’t have what it takes.” They will say, “Women don’t have what it takes.” 

Enough of my story, I had little or no idea people still checked this little space of mine after I left it for so long but then people started asking me how far with our blog na... It shows I am doing something right and I hope I keep making you all proud.

As depressed as I feel this morning, I feel there's someone out there that needs to hear this. Just believe in yourself and work hard...and work smart. Never underestimate God's love for you and the power of prayer.

I am back and hopefully I don't leave again. I promise to get some great posts ready for you within a week. 

I love you all like......KILODE.. *HAHA*